Yay! and Bleh!

So, I'm not doing great on the eating plan. Not great at all. Well, not TERRIBLE as real-life goes, but totally not eating responsibly.

Working out is AWESOME and I'm seeing results in increased running speed. No joke, I haven't ever been this fast. 2:30 is MIIIIIINE!!!

Cool thing happened during the "fast upper" workout yesterday. The shoulder pain on my left for YEARS IS GONE! Heard a loud pop when I was doing jumping pullups, and voila! Problem solved! I still can't believe it, two days later and it feels good. So kooky.

I'm getting smaller. Weighed at 176.5 today but I am SMALLER. Woo. Haven't been SMALLER since before Madi was born.

So, I made it nearly 3 weeks

Eating perfectly. And then, gave myself permission to have "a treat" mother's day weekend. Which turned into an all out eat-whatever-you-want weekend. Which, turned into me being sick as a dog with a full-blown cold, complete with phlegm and fever and generally wanting to die. I'll psychoanalyze it later.

Weigh a legitimate 174.5 this morning. Haven't seen that in YEAAAAARS. How is it a girl can run 3 half marathons and never lose a pound?

I'm less stringent with the Advanced plan right now. Just couldn't hack figuring it out while I was sick, although I'm sure ultimately I would have felt better faster. Things I miss = croutons. Regular salad dressing, although I think that's just in my mind. After 3 weeks of NO regular salad dressing, when I tried it a couple times this week, it was kinda gaggy.

Bread...don't miss it. Had a couple slices of frozen pizza the other day. It was disappointing. Same with "Sandwich Thins". I do love me some croutons though.

Today is Two Weeks

Almost talked myself outta my run, but didn't. Did the fast workout, and I'm so glad I did. Wore some capris that I haven't worn in a bit, and they're baggy. Started detoxing 2 days ago w/kit from Trader Joe's. My left tonsil hurts, so something is happening. Haven't been sick since November, when I started doing chiro. Please, oh please, I don't wanna get full on sick right now.

Need.More.Water.

Totally mad that I couldn't eat corn chips last night with Mexican night. Had everything else though, so if I closed my eyes after taking a bite of my 'pile' of burrito, it was nearly the same thing. Tone's brand taco seasoning has wheat flour in it, which sucks. I still used it for the beans though. At 40 cals for 2 tsp, how much of that could really be flour? And if I used HALF that amount for about 2# of beans, how much flour did I really get? It was worth the risk for some yummy beans. :D

Hm. Same ole, same ole.

Got busy this week and didn't do my workout on Wednesday. Told myself I'd do it Thursday, didn't happen. SO, even though we were scheduled to go to a little get-together last night, Jerry and I got our 12 minutes in. Except, for my benefit he put the Wednesday workout in so we could get it done first. Then, we did the Friday one. OMG. Two back to back is a lot. Feeling stronger. Need to run...my legs are getting that *antsy* feeling.

Made a small poundcake to take to the in-laws because it's MIL's birthday. It smelled good, but I wasn't tempted. Well, I WAS tempted, but more because I used a new recipe, and everyone said it was good. I kinda didn't believe them that it was THAT good, so I wanted to prove it to myself that it turned out. So, back and forth I went on having a bite, and finally decided not to. What would be the point of knowing if it was good? So I'd know it was good, and I couldn't (wouldn't) have more? So I hope the kids eat it. There's just a few slices left.

Left knee kinda hurt yesterday doing our workout. It's hurt a little like that before, when we were doing Bikram yoga and it was at the beginning. The hurting stopped, which makes me think it's just some weak part in the joint screaming out because new things are happening. We'll give it a couple days.

Funny about when you change your diet, folks try to encourage you to return to the status quo. "You can have just a little bit, it will be ok." or "You can cheat a little, it's not gonna hurt nothin'..." Well, I'm 10 days in. And feeling like I've got a handle on things, why would I start over? And why would I take advice from folks that are 50-60# overweight? Consider the source. Consider the source. These folks do NOT know what is good for me. I think they think I'm tortured or deprived, and while I'm NOT eating cakes and such right now, I don't feel deprived like on a diet. If you've never done it though, I guess you wouldn't know. I'm going to stop trying to explain what I'm doing though, because it's annoying for folks to say "Ohhh, so you're doing ATKINS?" Uhno. Not doing Atkins. There's gotta be a simpler explanation, like "OH, I'm eating mostly fresh things..."

So, had a big kale salad for dinner last night while everyone else had "regular" food. I was satisfied, and it was delicious. They had pound cake, whipped cream, and sugared mixed berries. I had a bowl of berries with a little xylitol on them, and that was delicious too.

I think I'm gonna skip store-bought almond milk. I think they add too much calcium to it, and it's messing with my digestion. Bleh.

Bleh. Not much to say.

Except I don't get hungry, I get cranky. Was running out the door the other day without breakfast (OMG I sooooo know better!) and by the time we got back, it was lunchtime. So, I had breakfast for lunch, and then I ate lunch for dinner, and was STILL cranky. Just couldn't catch up.

And I did that two days in a row. :( Am I trying to reach my threshold so I will just binge on everything in sight? Way to sabotage yourself. Nice.

Ate breakfast today, so we're back on track. Ran yesterday, and it was good. Didn't do my 12 mins. Want to do it today, and I'm already setting myself up to "not have time". Again, nice. Some of this stuff is not food related at all...it's habit-related and emotion-related. More mental work. Ugh. It's so hard.

Foraging for Food

I need to plan better. Still am sugar-free and feeling really good. Alert. Non-irritated. Easier to be around, lol! But while lunch is planned most days (salad with some sort of nuts on it) dinner hasn't been the past couple nights. Just been eating "sides" of things at a whim. I guess that's ok, to eat what you feel like eating, but if you don't know what you have, I can see where that would get me into trouble.

Want a Vitamix BAAAAAAD so I can make almond flour. Want to attempt a pizza crust from the Max Living recipes. Even Jerry said he'd wanna try it and eat it with me. :D Wouldn't that be awesome if the WHOLE family got off of wheat?

Feeling strong after doing the #4 workout. 12 minutes a day is totally easy to carve out. Ran 3 miles the day before and all the parts are working good.

Starting Day Seven

Was bummed last night making dinner because I planned on stir-fry and guess what...EVERY sauce known to man has either wheat or sugar or both in it. Like, I would actually describe it as being depressed. All I wanted was some yummy stir-fried veggies and what I was going to get was...salted steamed stir-fry veggies. BUMMER. So, as I was cooking, I said a blessing to the Creator thanking them for the food, and please help it nourish and heal me. That's the goal, right? And, I want to remember to bless all food that I eat. Much easier when it's good food, much harder when it's nachos. Can you see the total contridiction when you're eating nachos? Perhaps that's why the blessings have been few and far between...because I just wasn't putting good stuff in my bod all the time. And if you don't wanna pay attention to it, of COURSE you don't say a blessing.

The menu yesterday was weird, but I can safely say "no sugar" because for dinner I ended up with sauteed veggies in olive oil and a little salt and a splash of red wine vinegar. Very tasty, and I ate with chopsticks.

Weighed 179 this morning, which happens occasionally. Bouncing around between 184-179. I will be shocked when I hit 178. I think I got down to 176 three years ago when I was doing yoga training. Funnily enough, traditional yoga says no bread too. No cooked things whatsoever. I love it when all our experiences come together and start to make sense, at the time I felt tortured. Probably because I wasn't ready.